Filed under: So Sad News | Tags: death, family, funeral, paul bearer, sad, So Sad News
I was pallbearer for my uncle’s funeral. It was diffulcult to swallow, but I did it for my family and my uncle. I was trying to stay as strong as I could for my family, but I couldn’t hold back my tears anymore. Then, I thought that I may seem strong by not crying, but I know I will show my love for my family by allowing myself to cry. So, I let go. The the other paul bears and I were the first to put our flowers that were pinned to our shirts on the coffin, then we walked around and gave our condolences to our family. When I got to my cousin I wanted to hold her until she felt ok. I didn’t want her to be upset.
Before we closed the coffin I went up to my uncle and prayed and promised him I would always be there for my cousin and I will do my best to keep in touch with her and hang out with her as much as I can.
A blessing came out of my uncles death.
I realized how important family is
Filed under: Random, So Sad News | Tags: aunt, death, family, funeral, rosary, uncle
I went to my unlces rosary today.
I have been ignoring his death since it happened on Saturday. I had to face it today.
There he was just lying in his coffin. I couldn’t stop thinking about my cousin Susie, his daughter. All of my unlces and my one aunt sat in the front row. It was their brother. They all grew up together and now one was gone. My aunt read a little biography about him. She said that she always knew when her little brothers were up to no good because my uncle would say, “I don’t know anything.” It’s true he said that whenever my other uncles were being silly.
I thought about what it would be like to lose one of my siblings… I get scared thinking about it.
I was asked to be one of the pallbearers… I said yes… I wanted to say no… I don’t if I can handle that responsibilty…
Filed under: So Sad News | Tags: confused, death, family, R.I.P, sad, shocking
My uncle died last night.
His name was Albert Gutierrez. He was a really nice man. Smiled alot.
When I found out he died I was shocked. I knew he was sick and had bad health I just didn’t think his death would come so soon. I didn’t cry. I just sat in my room, thinking about how this will change things. I was never super close to my Uncle Bertie, but there was one person I could not stop thinking about, my cousin, his daughter. Her mom, my aunt, died when I was in middle school and now her father died. She is only 21 years old. Life is just starting for her and her parents are not there for it…
Second, I could not stop thinking about my other uncles and my dad. They were all so close and so funny together. It was like watching a sitcom at family get togethers. Now one is gone, and he won’t ever come back.
I feel like this is the first of many deaths to come that I have to experience AND THAT makes me scared.
